life is a rollercoaster !

missing you.

2012-02-04T23:08:00.003+07:00

it is indeed, hard. to have this kind of relationship going on.
communications are going on pretty smooth, but still, nothing can replace a real person.

I don't mind having this, as long as I can keep this going.
not knowing when we can meet, not knowing how the future will be.
just hoping for the best.

miss you heaps.

week 11.

2011-10-13T15:27:00.000+07:00

third semester is indeed hectic.
it's week 11 and I haven't started studying anything for my exam.
fyi, my exams are on 31st oct, 2nd, 3rd and 10th nov D:
and I still have 3 assignments left for week 12.
THIS IS CRAZYYYY!
hope for the best for all Monashians tho :D
wish we can pass with flying colourss :D

anyway, just found my friend's note in Facebook ~~that has been there for years but I only realised it again now because someone commented on it~~.
the words are, beautiful and real.
help me realise that I am a lucky girl among the other lucky people :D
so, here it is!

*************

It Is....

It's nice to know that you're secured with that someone. That even if the rain is pouring hard and the sky is almost dark, he'll never leave you just so you won't feel alone. Even if his friends had left him (and even if he has to be somewhere else) he'd still stay by your side, just so you won't feel alone.

It's so good to know that you have someone who'll be willing to help you cope up in every frustrations you're having. Every depressing moments, every down moments, every self-worthless-realization moments, he'd be there, not because you want someone to be with you, but because he wants to be with you.

It's great to know when a person appreciates every little thing you do. Even a smile would mean a lot to him, just because you own that smile. And that even if no words are expressed as long as the eyes understand, you'd be able to communicate, just like that.

It's overwhelming when a person tells you that he loves you for who you are. He may not have an answer when you ask him why, but really, he doesn't have to have reasons for loving you.

It's more grateful to know that someone is grateful to have you. We don't choose the people who enter our lives, so it must be luck that you have that person, then you have to be thankful. It may just be coincidence or fate, but whatever the reason is, you have to be thankful in having him the same way he is thankful for having you.

It's a wonderful feeling when you're on the verge of giving up the things you've worked hard for, someone isn't just helping you carry the weight on your shoulders, but he carries it on his own because he'd also be in pain when you are in pain. And then you'll realize, trials would all be worth it as long as you have him, not because he would do things for you, but because you gather all the strength you need, in him and his love.

It's a superb feeling when one is willing to take the risks just so you'll be happy. Unselfishness rule in him just so happiness would take over you.

It's a nice feeling that when you're apart, and days seem to be long, that person misses you. Yes, you might feel bad about not being with each other, but knowing that you feel the same way would drive those blues away, thinking, you'd fight over that feeling because you're looking forward to seeing each other, and that's something to be happy about.

It's a great feeling when he wants to be with you because of the happiness you have when you're together. That even if corny jokes and senseless stories are told, it won't matter as long as you're together.

It's a lovely feeling when someone thinks about your future, with or without him. He cares and he cares enough to think of you and what you'll be someday. But of course, he also wants to be in it someday.

It's a nice feeling when you can be who you really are with that person. No pretentions, no lies, no hypocrisy, because he accepts you for who you are. You can be funny, you can be embarrased, but it won't matter coz it doesn't matter to him. Trust and faith in each other keeps you alive. And it will always do.

It's good to know that you have someone who'll not have the intentions of breaking your heart. Instead, he would be willing to mend it, picking up the broken pieces of your heart that your past love have scattered in the ground. He may not be able to put the pieces back to where they really belong, but you shouldn't mind, because he had repaired that heart of yours, and he fixed it in his own way. He loves you in his own way, not the way your past did. He fixed your heart in a different way, to keep you from feeling the pains of your past heartache and to make you feel, the love, that he's unselfishly giving.

It's a great feeling when that person has every effort to let you feel what he feels for you. Because of the distractions, you may not hear him shout it to the world, but as long as you feel it, his efforts has paid off, big time. And when you feel the same way too... He'd feel as if he's the luckiest person alive.

... when in fact, you're more blessed to have him.

another thoughts of mine :)

2011-06-15T08:43:00.000+07:00

this morning, I saw a friend of mine posted this on her Facebook,
"Distance means absolutely nothing, when someone means so much :)"

actually I am quite disagree about this.
I personally thinks that when someone starts to mean so much to you, that's when distance starts to be everything to you as well.

when someone means so much to you, you want to be close to them.
you want them to be by your side all the time.
if not, then you will miss them. and start to wonder what they are currently doing now.
are they healthy?
are they living in happiness and joy?
did something bother them today?

just a random thought of mine,
vee.

P.S.: going for my most difficult exam today :D best of luck to all FST-ers :D

fever.

2011-04-29T19:57:00.002+07:00

it is when you need your mum the most.

when you miss your family a lot, especially mum.

you can't help but wondering, 'I wish mum was here'.

the one who tells you what to do and what you are not supposed to do.

the one who is angry whenever you disobey her words.

it is because she always tries her best to give us the best option we could have.

when we listened to her and we didn't get what's the best for us, it's not her fault.

she tried, and failed.

people makes mistakes, even mum.

I miss when she takes care of me like a little girl when I am sick.

staying near to me to make sure that I am okay.

I miss when she tells me what to do, eat, and when to sleep.

I miss all the attention she gives to me.

the love, care, attention, everything.

mum, I really wish you are here now.

love, your daughter <3

3 months of holiday. sigh

2011-01-04T11:02:00.000+07:00

well, it's been a quite good holiday so far.
so many things happening.
starting from my arrival in Jakarta on 24th of November.

dad's birthday on 6th of December.

mum's birthday on 18th of December.

cousins and relatives were coming to Jakarta on 20th of December

Christmas getaway to Medan from 24th of December to 29th of December

*well, it can be said as culinary trip tho. eating non-stop*

new year's eve BBQ and fireworks gathering on 31st of December

bbq-ing session

one of the fireworks we put up that was captured

sounds like a really fun holiday, huh?

and i will go to spore this 13th of January to attend my cousin's wedding and popo's birthday.

the chinese new year gathering this year is in Jakarta :D

*************

it is a fun holiday.

but now i am in state where i can no longer wait for a thing to happen.

please, give me the opportunity to meet him soon.

very soon :(

love,

vee

untitled.

2010-12-08T22:56:00.001+07:00

yes, an untitled post again.

a relationship needs a two way effort, one way will not make it till the end.
both need to fight for it.
the question is, is this worth fighting and suffering for?

there was someone great born on December 6, 2010 :)

2010-12-08T19:03:00.000+07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! <3

love you so much :)

thanks for everything that you have done for us, your loved ones.

i am proud of you :)

morning surprise :)

i am not the cinderella, i guess :(

2010-12-08T18:41:00.000+07:00

last Saturday, went to mall with mum and dad.
initial plan : to buy a blackberry for me *yippie!*

so, after arriving we went to look for food first.
getting back from malaysia, and i still ate the shinlin xxl chicken.
can be said as my usual food there, cause me likey the chicken :D
fyi : it's diff here and malaysia. in here, the xxl chicken has no bone! yippie! and they cut it into pieces :)
i regretted that i ordered the ricebox set.
:s

finished with filling our tummy with food, the hunt for blackberry shops was begun.
we managed to find 2 stores, with competitive prices.
but at the end, we bought at the first store we visited.
and now we're stuck with the Rp. 200,000 voucher to buy blackberry there.
~_~

proudly said, *drumrolls* my own blackberry! XD

me, excited with the blackberry, willingly to follow mum wherever she went for shopping XD
but at the end, it was me who bought things.
mum dragged me to 'The Executive' store, and i had just remembered that i had none of white formal shirts.
and i bought one after trying so much formal shirts.
being dragged to the department store, and i bought a purse i wanted from last last week.
well, i felt happy and guilty at the same time for spending much much money in a day.

lastly, being dragged to charles and keith.
mum asked me to buy a pair of flats. she is sick of me who always wears flip flops wherever i go.
fyi : she bought me a pair of heels last last week, and i was wearing it on the day i am telling you now.
and i found a pair of cute flats! ><
i want it so badly, and asked for my size.
too bad, my feet were so small, they don't have my size :(

not the cinderella *sigh*

untitled.

2010-11-07T23:30:00.000+07:00

when feelings cannot be shouted out loud.
sigh.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

happy 7eleven days guys!

2010-11-07T23:26:00.000+07:00

hihihi ! :DD
went to 7eleven twice today, afternoon and night.
at noon, just bought a small cup of slurpee to refresh ourselves (me and chandra).
we knew that today is 7eleven day, but didn't expect to get anything since the event is only going on in Australia. :(
in the end, we didn't get anything.
but the slurpee was sweet and cool :DD
and it's enough.

and at night, i bought a medium cup of slurpee.
yes, you can say i'm kinda addicted to the flavour.
went to the same 7eleven as the one in the evening.
after paying, suddenly the cashier gave us (me and jin hwa) 2 walls ice creams because today is 7eleven day.
woots!
was shocked since i've already bought the medium cup, but ate the ice cream as well :DD
too many sugars for the day :DD

happy 7eleven day! <3

the cornetto was jin hwa's.

i can't eat that much.

anyway, thanks to jin hwa for fetching me there :DD

*************

learnt from someone that i should stop complaining about my life but i just can't help it.

some people that are actually causing problem to others, keep blaming others for the problem when they actually are the problem.

i just can't stand it.

sigh.

okay, i need to do revision for tmr psychology exam.

wish me luck :D

all the best for those who are having their exams tmr and the day after and so on!

:DD

surviving !

2010-09-05T12:03:00.000+07:00

hi hi hi !
i'm back to my blog after passing my 7th week in monash.
it was the most hectic week in Monash, so far.
i have 5 submissions of assignments in week 7.
no, it's not your eyes, you are right, it is FIVE.

two on wednesday, and another three on friday.
woohoo !
well, it was holiday on 27th and 31st of august.
but still, two of em are worth 10% EACH.

but thanks God, i'm surviving from that hectic week.
without missing my vball practice.
i.just.miss.vball.too.MUCH !
so, i am still practicing on tues nite and sat morning.
on tues nite, when i got back, i hav no energy left, finally i did nothing that day.
lol

*************

now i'm on the starting of week 8.
which is quite okay for me.
as usual, i got online quizzES as the appetizer,
and i got lab report as the snack =)
the lab report due tmr before 12,
yet i hav just done one part.
tonite i'm going to bukit bintang.
and now i'm finding some ~~distractions~~ things to do before i continue it.
hope i can finish this before going *fingercrossed*

can't wait for the vball competition.
wish i can do my best, and not disappointing the other team members =)

good news: i got the number 13 ! XD XD
bad news: i'm not feeling well since yesterday =(

kay then,
see yaaa.
back to report !

love,
vee

bad news.

2010-08-10T00:29:00.000+07:00

hellooo !
i'm back here with few bad news .

first, i'm not feeling ~~very~~ well since last Tuesday.
i almost got a fever, but thanks God, it didn't turn out to be a very bad fever.
my sore throat already gone as well , but i still have difficulties in breathing due to my runny nose =(
i'm trying to make the runny nose go away by drinking my vitamin, and it shows a good effect =)
myb i'm just tired and not used to the Monash schedule currently.
thanks to my dear and friends who are wishing me to get well soon =)
take care guys ! =)

second, i have a lazy syndrome all over the way.
i was planning to do my SCI1020 asg since i-dunno-when, but i have just started this sunday, which is bad.
now i'm ~~supposed to be~~ catching up while updating my blog.

i think that's all .
wish you all a great week !
=)

birthday !

2010-06-24T17:43:00.001+07:00

22nd of June 2010 , i was 18 ! XD
my birthday was celebrated many times XD

but first , my mum and dad called me to say happy birthday .
they even sang 'happy birthday' for me .
i couldn't help but crying =)
thanks mum and dad , u really gv smth in my birthday even though you are not present here =)

*************

after i received the call , i returned to my room .
my cousin was right behind the door ready to say happy birthday and gimme a hug ><
and also my roommie , Fimtan =)

then , i was back to my laptop .
suddenly someone blindfolded me .
'okay , here comes the mess' XD

ce amek and fimtan took me out from the unit .
brought me up and down .
and suddenly i was familiar with the smell of the place .
well , it is quite weird that i was familiar with the smell ,
but it is true .
some places have their own unique smell .
and my guess was right , i was being brought to B-17-03 .

still being blindfolded , i was taken to a certain place at the unit .
then Chandra sang a song for me =P
*i love this part =P*
and he chose the song which i like soo much =)
and i didn't know how to react and i was just randomly doing smth that i could think abt .
thanks chan =*

after that , comes the cake , brought by Vina and Carol .
i would love to post the picture over here , but too bad i don't have the file yet .
then the normal ritual , blew the candles , took the candles out of the cake and cut the cake =)
it was quite dirty XD

i would like to thank cece amek , chan , fimtan , papake , omke , vina , carol and andro for celebrating my birthday =)
i really really love it .
thanks a lot =D

*************

in the morning , chan came to my unit .
from last nite , he stayed in B-17-03 .
he had just remembered that he had not given me the presents yet .
yep , presents .
he gave me two presents =D

the paper which wrapped the presents had smth written on it .
"you are the best friend because you always listen to what i DON'T say"
*thanks to chan for the correction*

*************

it was not just my birthday , it was also Annita's birthday XD
happy birthday , Ann XD

we were celebrating her birthday in Monash , after she finished her exam .
nothing much to tell =)

*************

at night , chan accompanied me to have dinner in Pyramid .
thanks to him , still accompanying me even though he still have exam on 25th of June .
all the best dear =)

we ate and played in the arcade .
bishi bashi and basketball were enough to fill my day =)
it was soo fun .
we almost beat the top score ><

and chan also found cooking mama in the arcade .
one of my favourite games , i played it XD

too bad the photobox machine was not operating =(

despite of that, it was a wonderful nite , i was very very happy and tired =)
thanks a lot , dear =)

*************

and the day was not over yet .
i was blindfolded , again .

i was brought to in front of Lagoonview .
i could hear there are a lot of people there , including Annita XD

yes , my friends celebrated my birthday =)
another group of friends =)

this time , i was not getting dirty XD
just take a few pictures , and giving out cakes .

thanks a lot friends XD
*i can't tell one by one since there are A LOT ! XD*

*************

i couldn't stop saying 'thank you' to all of my friends who were celebrating my birthday .
thanks =)

the greatest phone calls i ever had , so far .

2010-06-16T21:44:00.000+07:00

first i called my mum ,
this was the conversation i loved the most .

mum : it is almost ur birthday . what do u want for ur birthday ? i'll prepare it and bring it later .
me : i'm going to buy a camera , and that's enuff mum .
mum : no , i gv u that camera . it's for ur graduation present as well . so , u will hav another present for birthday .
me : then , i just want you to be here for my birthday . you .
mum : awww , sorry i couldn't make it . there are too many events and they r close to each other . you know there will b koko's graduation and wei jian's wedding .
me : yea =)

i can't help but crying during the phonecall .
sorry mum for lying , i told you i am having a flu that's why i sounded different in the phone .

*************

the second one , is my best friend .
i called her , i couldn't help but crying when i heard her voice .
i don't realize how much i miss her until i heard her voice .
and i think she felt the same way too =)
we cried in the phone .
both of us =)

talking to each other like we used to , it is just . amazing =)

well , it was over cause i forgot to reload my credits .
lol

gonna repeat these sometimes =)

counting down : 7 days ! XD

2010-06-15T18:27:00.003+07:00

and i already have my wish list ♥

which is, sadly will still remain as a wish =(

hurt . pain . tears

2010-06-01T00:26:00.000+07:00

scared .

that is what i am feeling right now .

every time i recall the past , i am becoming more and more scared of the past .

i do believe .

i do feel and sense it .

but why am i still having a feeling called scared ?

scared to lose .

scared to let go .

but , let it remains sealed .

'not mine , but Thy will be done'

letters to Juliet .

2010-05-28T23:13:00.000+07:00

~~today~~ yesterday , i went to pyramid with Chandra =D
we planned to watch Prince of Persia since we couldn't make it to watch with the others .
well , but we just relied on our luck .
and sadly , it was failed =(

then we checked Furry Vengeance and Robin Hood , but FV is not there anymore and RH is full .
too bad =(
then we left the counter with nothing .
then sudden thought came into my mind , "Why don't we just watch 'Letters to Juliet' ?"

well , we gave a shot , and we got it =D
at first i was nervous , i was scared that Chandra would not like it .
but well , we already bought the ticket =)

*************

we went to Nando's for dinner ,
then we thought abt watching it tomorrow night .
and after dinner , we queued again and we got the ticket .
yayyy xD

but today , we were watching Letters to Juliet .

from the title , you could guess what it is all about .
yep , true love =)

if you lovee romantic movie soo much ,
i recommend you to watch this movie ;)

funny . romantic . sweet =)
*psst , the guy who plays Charlie is very very handsome ! for real !*

*************

after all , i had a great day today with Chandra .
and i am happy that he had the same feeling as mine =)

on our way home , we talked while we were walking .
and i love those conversation ;)

we hope for the same thing ,
wish we already find our true love =)

it is never been too late for true love .

CIMP : case closed !

2010-05-26T15:20:00.000+07:00

finally i'm free from CIMP .
officially starting todayy =D

i finished my bio exam .
the night before, i could not sleep .
first my heart was beating .
i thought i was scared to face the bio .
in fact , the qs is not as hard as i thought it would be .
so , just waiting for the results ;)

even though exam has passed , my heart still beats very fast .
scared ? yes i am .
because of result ? no it's not !
so why this heart still beats very fast ?
because i will face my fear tomorrow .

N.E.E.D.L.E .
yes , i am going to have medical check up tomorrow morning .
to meet the requirement of Monash University .
omg omg .
i'm so nervous . and so does my mom .
she knows that i am scared and she is worried that i am going to go alone tomorrow .
well , i have to face it though .
wish me all the best =]

happy =D

2010-05-23T23:56:00.002+07:00

for some reason , i am so happy yesterday .
the day which i spent to go to pasar malam with chan and suksuk (har) .
the day which i spent on studying and playing in b-17-03 .

i was so happy =)

Guang Liang - Tien Tang (Michael Wong - Heaven)

2010-05-18T00:01:00.001+07:00

i found the song has a very beautiful meaning =)
i would love to share it , so here it is !

牽著你在天空飛翔
Qian zhe ni zai tian kong fei xiang

這樣看世界不一樣
Zhe yang kan shi jie bu yi yang

有了你在身旁笑的臉龐
You le ni zai shen pang xiao de lian pang

世界或許
Shi jie huo xu

就這麼寬廣
Jiu zhe me kuan guang

忽然就忘記了慌張
Hu ran jiu wang ji le huang zhang

人海之中你最明亮
Ren hai zhi zhong ni zui ming liang

無意間的影響
Wu yi jian de ying xiang

漸漸擴張
Jian jian kuo zhang

你豐富我生活感想
Ni feng fu wo sheng huo gan xiang

何必尋找所謂的天堂
He bi xun zhao suo wei de tian tang

原來我因為你
Yuan lai wo yin wei ni

不想再去流浪
Bu xiang zai qu liu lang

情願平凡
Qing yuan ping fan

不擁有一切也無妨
Bu yong you yi qie ye wu fang

有了你在心上
You le ni zai xin shang

已然是天堂
Yi ran shi tian tang

已經是天堂
Yi jing shi tian tang

Translations =)
(of course it is not ME who is translating , i don't really understand chinese =( )

Holding your hands while flying in the sky
Viewing the world (from above) is very different
With you by my side, and your smiling face
(I realize) Perhaps the world is actually very vast

I've suddenly forgotten all my anxieties
In a midst of crowd, you shine the brightest
Without realizing your increasing influence (on me)
You have fulfilled and enriched my life

Why bother to search for a supposed heaven?
Because of you, I no longer desire to wander off
I'd rather be ordinary and it doesn't matter if I don't possess anything at all
When I have you in my heart, I'm already in heaven

I've suddenly forgotten all my anxieties

In a midst of crowd, you shine the brightest

Without realizing your increasing influence (on me)

You have fulfilled and enriched my life

Why bother to search for a supposed heaven?

Because of you, I no longer desire to wander off

I'd rather be ordinary and it doesn't matter if I don't possess anything at all

When I have you in my heart, I'm already in heaven

*dedicated to someone =)*

this is my stage and i am going to play it my way . can i ?

2010-05-14T23:33:00.000+07:00

after thinking over and over ,
do i have to do this ?
why am i having this feelings ?
do i have to pretend to b strong ?
am i the one that always have to understand others feelings ?

after all , i'm just a human being .
i want someone to understand me sometimes .
i can't be perfect all the time .
i cannot prepare for the things that will come .
life is a mess .

i'm just a human being .
i'm full of imperfectness .
and i am tired of putting my mask on all of the time .
this is my stage , and i am going to play it my way .

but after a few moments , i realize that i cannot put off my mask .
i am aware of other's feelings .
i just can't ignore it .

for someone who IS very dear to me =)

2010-05-03T00:07:00.006+07:00

someone who came into my life, quietly.
someone who made me having a hope in him, even though i thought it was impossible.
someone who is quiet, yet full of surprises.
someone who holds my hands tightly.
someone who remembers things that are connected with me, but forgets a lot of other people's.
someone who looks like he does not care at all, but in fact, he cares for me.
someone who understands me.
someone who always be there in my best and in my worst.
someone who supports me all the time.
someone who motivates me.
someone whom i tell all my stories and feelings to.
someone who listens to every word and ideas that i said, no matter how weird they are.
someone who makes me feel relieved.
someone who makes me feel secure to have him around.
someone who comforts me.
someone who does every little things which i love.
someone who makes me laugh.
someone who is the reason that i still can be smiling in the most terrible day.
someone who always wants to please me.
someone who always wants to make me smile.
someone who reminds me of something important.
someone who helps me to overcome my fears.
someone who is honest.
someone who is scared to hurt my feelings.

someone who makes me excited and happy.

someone who makes me wanting to be perfect for him.

someone who makes me wondering what he is actually thinking and doing.

someone who makes me asking why and how.

someone who protects me.

someone who makes me can do the things that i thought was impossible, by just believing and having faith in me that i can do it.

someone whom i love.
someone whom i miss.
someone whom i care for.
someone who makes me pray that this is not just a sweet dream.
someone who makes me feel blessed and thankful to God for his presence.

someone who is grateful for my presence.

someone who feels blessed for the feelings i have towards him.

someone who express his love in his own way.
someone who is you =)
undeniable.irreplaceable. irresistible.you

movies !

2010-05-02T23:13:00.001+07:00

I watched the two fabulous movies two days in a row !
xD

*************

*i bet you know what is that xD*

Ip Man 2

a week before it was released , i haven't even watched the Ip Man .
i do have the file , but i'm lazy to watch .
when Ip Man was released , i was in Jakarta , planning to watch that .
unfortunately , my friends didn't seem interested in it , so we ended up watching other movie.

chan was soo excited when Ip Man 2 was going to b released soon .
i asked him abt the outline of the Ip Man story .
he said Ip Man was a teacher of Bruce Lee and he teached kung fu .
and in Ip Man 2 , he moved to HK (Hong Kong , not Hell's Kitchen . he ain't gonna face Gordon Ramsey).
when i heard that , i couldn't help but said 'that's it ?' .
well , from the description , it's not THAT interesting .
not only from chan , i heard the same thing from others.

since chan was soo excited , i watched the first one so i could accompany him to watch the second one.
when i watched it , OMG ! IT'S DAMNN GOOD ! xD xD
even though i didn't understand the chinese that was put on the screen at the intro and ending ,
*which made me confused of what was happening*
i knew that at the end of the first ip man movie , the ip man was still alive .
simply because there is ip man 2 which would b released soon .
*it screwed all the things , curiousity and the adrenaline that was pumped up*

ended up , i wanted to watch the second one .
not because chan wanted to watch it sooo much .
but i wanted to watch it much and more xD
thanks to chan for making me watched it now , not later on when i had to download ip man 2 =*

so , Friday , 30th of April 2010 , we (me and chan) went to pyramid to watch it .
*am not going to spoil the excitement of those who haven't watched it yet*

during the movie , all people in the cinema were clapping on certain scenes of the movie *of course i was joining them*
and at the end of the movie , we thought that the movie was very very very AWESOMEE XD
the movie taught me lots lots of things .
and made me proud as a Chinese =)

for those who haven't watched yet , you a~~re recommended~~ HAVE TO watch it really soon .
especially if you r Chinese ;p
if you think it is going to happen as what the trailer shows you ,
you are WRONGGG !
xD xD
*OMG i got really excited in writing this post xD*

ask yourself these qs .
are you ashamed of your own country ?
are you ashamed of the culture of your country that sounds so boring and old-fashioned ?
OR
are you being TOO proud of your country ?
do you think your country and your culture is the best in the world ?

if you answered yes on both qs , then you really really really need to watch this movie =)
even though it was applied on Chinese , it will really give you the idea =)

okay , i think if i continue this post , i will spoil the excitement for you .
WATCH IT ! XD XD

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*i bet you know this one as well*
Iron Man 2

my roomie said the movie was not really good .
she gave B- as her review .
i was not excited as before, after i heard that .

still , i went to watch it .
thanks to Tarabuddy for arranging times to buy tickets for us (60 people) =D

as i said before , am not going to spoil the excitement for those who haven't watched the movie yet .
it was awesome .
*from my reaction , you should have known which one i prefer =P*

as was expected from iron man , the technology was very very cool !
i would like to have those technology in my house someday =P

as a bonus , the movie is giving you a moral lesson as well ;)

a sudden recall =)

2010-04-17T21:08:00.000+07:00

when i was ironing just now ,
then this song was suddenly playing in my mind .

'haruskah ku teteskan air mata di pipi ?
haruskah ku curahkan sgala isi di hati ?
haruskah kau ku peluk dan tak ku lepas lagi ?
agar tiada pernah ada kata berpisah.'
masih ada - Warna

roughly , the translation in english ,
do i have to drop these tears on my cheek?
do i have to pour out those things that fill my heart?
do i have to hold you and never let it go?
so there will be no goodbye.
*it sounds not as good as it was in bahasa Indonesia , but i hope you get the idea*

=)

a place i called home =)

2010-04-17T11:04:00.001+07:00

homesick ,
i feel that feeling lately =(

it's funny to feel homesick when people around you have created another 'home' for you .
it is not just another building which we stay for a long time .

you , the one who read this , have created a home for me here .
i want to say a hugeeee thank you =)
thanks God for sending me YOU .
my only family here , my bf and my friends .

i miss my mom , dad , bro , mbak and friends =(

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not just the people , i miss the food as well =D
indomie goreng (i can buy it here though) , rendang , ayam bakar , keripik kentang which my mbak made it SPECIALLY for me =)

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yesterday , i went to pyramid with jess and agustini after finishing class ;)
guess what ?
i spent lotssssssss of money for prom !
just for the dress and ~~my first~~ heels xD
i haven't bought the bag (if there's a chance to go again , i think i will =P) .
and it keeps me thinking , 'omgomg i hav spent lots of money and the amount will still increase o.O'

for the dress , it's the dress i liked since last month (?) ,
when i tried it , it was a bit big for me =(
then the woman in the store offered to 'modify' it a bit so it can fit =)
so i take the offer , and voilaa !
it fits !
thanks to youu =D
*by the way , she was really good at measuring .
*she asked me to wear it again , pinch here, pinch there , without any mark to indicate how much she needed to modify
*and when i was back again and tried it , it fitted well !

and for the heel ,
i tried , and my feet simply didn't want to let it go .
gosh , think i had to buy it as well .
luckily it's white , and it matched to my dress =D

omg i looooove shopping xD

dentist oh dentist ~

2010-04-06T23:06:00.002+07:00

my greatest fear of all , yes it's dentist .
they are there with the drill , prepared to fix your teeth .

i had a bad experience from my last time dental care .
so , no wonder i'm scared to go to dentist .

i dunno why i'm having these cracks on my teeth .
it doesn't give any harm on me , but i'm scared it would get worse .
so , i decided to go to the dentist .

i asked the doctor to be a bit gentle with my teeth since i'm very afraid .
and she asked whether i had a bad experience from my last dental care .
yeah , you know the answers .

she said it would not be painful .
and yes !
it did not pain at all .
but i was scared hearing and sensing those drills on my teeth =="

thanks to chan for accompanying me to the dentist .
he knew how scared i am .
=)

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at the end of the day , i realized it is very hard to bring my great escape to reality =(

a delicious fire drill !

2010-03-30T15:36:00.000+07:00

today , March 30th, 2010 ,
in my college , Sunway University College , having a fire drill .
some practice to face if there's a fire in the college .
but we have a REAL firefighter xD

okay , it was held on 10 45 .
the fire alarm rung and everyone came out .
that is how it supposed to b .
but not with our (mine and itin's) 'fire drill' .

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i planned to go and join the fire drill at first .
and when i almost finished my 2nd period class , i started to think about skipping 3rd period class and the fire drill .
when i texted itin and jess , none of them replied.
so i thought i should kick those 'skipping-class' thinking .

but well , the evil side of me always win .
when i finished my 2nd period class , i headed to library to pass to the north buildiing for my commtech class .
but no one can passed there at that moment since fire drill would b starting soon .
so , i went downstairs to put my books in locker and went to commtech class .

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then i met itin in front of locker .
both of us too lazy to go for fire drill , so we planned to go to pyramid to hav lunch .
trying to call jess to join us , but she didn't pick up .
so , we just went outside and waiting for the bus !

and this was our fire drill all about =P

yes ! we were having lunch in Manhattan Fish Market xD

at first we decided to hav our meal in Fullhouse (due to the cheaper price for lunch =P)

but too bad it hadn't opened yet .

and the next period started at 12 , so we hurried back .

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when we reached college , it was 10 mins before 12 .

but we did not see any of CIMP-ans .

'did the class already start since the fire drill finished earlier ?' we thought .

and we found out the answer when we reached commtech class .

ms Tara was smiling at us when she saw us entering the class (i dunno what did it means) .

i asked jess whether the class started for a long time alrdy .

and she said the fire drill finished at 11 30 , and after that , they already entered the class !

omg .

but ms Tara was not counting us as late since in the schedule , class started at 12 .

what a delicious 'fire drill' ;p

love and sacrifice .

2010-03-25T14:17:00.000+07:00

we are often told that love means sacrificing for your loved ones .
i found it is quite untrue .

sacrificing sounds to me , like you are being forced to do it .
there is no other choice .
but in life , there is always a choice .
even thought you are hurt by someone whom you love .
you have the choice to leave , or to stay and forgive .

and if you pick the second choice .
it is not sacrificing yourself being hurt by him/her and in the end you have to try to forget it .
it is your CHOICE to stay and try to forgive their faults .

be glad and be blessed art thou who feel love =)
it makes you alive .

*love is not only about couples . you can see love thru your parents' eyes and your friends' action =)*

='(

2010-03-22T15:51:00.000+07:00

today is the first day of national exam in Indonesia .
they r having Biology as the appetizer .

around 3 pm , i received a message from kath (one of my besties whom i love the most) .
she said she's not sure abt the results since it's different from what they had been told before by the teachers .
and when she compared her answers with others , there were lots of different answers .
i asked her to calm down , and try to forget abt it .
i'm afraid she will panic , sad and down because of this .
and it can affect her next exam which is tomorrow .

then after i'm online , cunto told me he oso couldn't do it .
fyi : cunto is one of the smartest friends i hav .
i'm shocked yet sad .
and i told him what i said to kath earlier .

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even though i'm not having the exam ,
i feel sad now =(
kath and cunto are smart and clever .
i never thought they could not do it .
=(

feel like flying to Indonesia now and hug them .
support them =(
but what can i do ?

i know i told them to calm down and get over this .
but i even can't hold those tears .

i just can pray and hope that tomorrow will be better for them .
to my friends in Indonesia ,
i believe you are capable of doing the exam .
i knew it =)

just do your best , and God will do the rest .
may the God be with you , always .
love you , guys .
*hugs and kisses*

yes , it's another update in March .

2010-03-20T09:51:00.002+07:00

myb u guys are wondering why this girl is suddenly updating sooo much .
while before , i didn't update my blog for a few months (?)

ya ya ya , i know i've been updating ~~too~~ much this month .
dunno why , feels like updating since i changed the layout .
it looks nicer this way .
myb that's the reason =P

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yesterday was really a great day .
besides the lovey-dovey thingy ,
i bought a cardigan and a pants as well =D

remember the cardigan i mention in my previous update ?
'i saw a cardigan yesterday , and i looooooove it !
too bad , the size left is only M , when what i need is S =(
cannot forget abt it =('
the good news is , that cardigan is the one i bought yesterday xD

i'm soo in love with it and it made me very stubborn .
i came back to that store again , and asking for the size again ~~and again and again~~ .
at the first time , they already said they would NOT restock it .
but they did !
so i bought it in xs size (smaller than i thought) .

yay yay yay !

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and i also found the snack which natalia brought to rcia last monday xD

try to bought one (which i'm not really sure it's the same one) .

and it tasted the same !

nyum nyum ~

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last but not least , wish for the best to all my friends who will face the national exam .

u can do it !

do the best , and God will do the rest =)

may the God be with you , always =)

lovee youu guyss x)

thought you would not remember ;p

2010-03-19T22:07:00.000+07:00

today is March 19th, 2010 .
it's been a fabulous 2 months =)
thanks !

having a great day ,
even though we just ate in ming tian and went to pyramid just to buy toilet paper and snacks .
;)

*neva thought he would remember ,
was a bit shocked when he thanked for this pleasant 2 months xD*

death . death . death

2010-03-18T19:35:00.000+07:00

a sudden thought came into my mind .
why am I having those nightmares again ?
why are they seemed so real ?
I can't sleep well , and I dunno why .

it's not the nightmare which i had before for so many times .
the nightmares which made me afraid to go back to sleep again .
the nightmares which made me cried in the middle of the night .
the nightmares about someone that was once very dear to me .

now , it's about the death .
the death of my parents , and about mine .

questions come to my mind ,
'will tomorrow come ?'
'will I see that person tomorrow ?'
'can I hold them tomorrow ?'
'where will I be tomorrow ?'

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the nightmares are back to hunt me down .
it thirsts for my fear and my tears .

untitled.

2010-03-18T09:12:00.002+07:00

akhir nyahh saya ngeblogg lagii setelah sekian lamaa =D

here i am ,
almost in the end of my mid sems break .
thinking what to do everyday , when actually i hav lots of things to do .

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soon is my conformation !
yay !
finally after few months following RCIA !

my conformation will b held on April 3rd, 2010 .
anyone who wants to come , please contact me !
i will give you the place and time =D

but the sad thing is , Jacky already screwed up the surprise for the conformation .
=P

i cannot wait for the day to come ><

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on the past white day , i made cookies with one of my friends =D
it tasted really good xD
thanks to omke , giving me some experience in making cookies .

i gave some to chan , and he said it tasted nice =D
(even though , the cookies were already 2 days old)
yay !

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yesterday , went to pyramid with jess to do her commtech project and (of course) shopping !
unfortunately , jess could not get a permission from the bakery to take the picture =(
fyi : commtech students hav to make a website for a REAL small business .
sounds cool , isn't it ? xD
we hav to meet our own clients and ask for permission .
even though they already hav their own website and pictures ,
we hav to take ourselves !

i saw a cardigan yesterday , and i looooooove it !
too bad , the size left is only M , when what i need is S =(
cannot forget abt it =(

and i cannot find the dress for my conformation =(
i really want a pure white dress =(

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yesterday wasn't end that way .
i went to pyramid again at night to watch greenzone with chan and suksuk =D
bought the ticket at noon , and the long q amazed me .
'wow ! it's wednesday and the q is not supposed to b this long !'
and i thought the cheaper price may b the cause .
just hoping the tickets i wanted to buy was not sold out .

poor me , the guy just besides me, in the cinema, is a heavy smoker (i think) .
the smell of his smokes was veryy bad =(
well , trying to enjoy the movie .

in the end , the movie was great !
need to clarify to myself what was happening inside the screen .
but i could understand ~~almost~~ everything =D
(the camera is a bit shaky , but it's okay =))

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not forgetting to mention the lovely surprises on my desk on Feb 25th, 2010 ,
thanks to all people who involved in it =D
i really really looove it ! xD
neva thought he would gimme anything =P

and i learnt one thing ,
the longer you stay with a person as your partner ,
each and everyday you will only love them more and more =)
it cannot stay in the same level .
(dunno why when i re-read those sentences ,
i thought myself as an electron which goes excited and goes to higher energy level ,
but i'm not going back to lower energy level *sounds soo chemistry. okay , forget abt this*)

(okay , i learnt two things)
if a person knows that you love them , and they said they love you too .
you have a big responsibility of holding that person's feelings carefully .
while in the other hand , you hav your own feelings .
you want to talk it out , but you are just afraid to hurt their feelings .
but the feeling is crawling inside of you .
all you can do is to think , and do what's best for both of you .
not just the best for them or the best for you .
it's the best for both =)

because when it comes to love ,
it's not just about you or me , it's about us =)

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sorry for the long update ;)
p.s : it's my first english post , sorry for the bad english =D

soneta 17 - Pablo Neruda

2010-01-28T22:16:00.000+07:00

*english*
I do not love you as if you were a rose made of salt or topaz
or an arrow of carnations spreading fire:
I love you the way certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you like the plant that never blooms,
but conceals within itself the light of those flowers;
and, thanks to your love, the darkness of my body
houses the suffocating aroma that arose from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, when, or where from;
I love you straightforwardly, with neither problems nor pride:
I love you thus, not knowing how to love you otherwise

than this way whereby neither ‘you’ nor ‘I’ exist…
so close that your hand on my chest is mine,
so close that your eyes grow heavy when I tire.

*indonesia*
Aku tak mencintaimu seperti engkau adalah mawar,
Atau topas atau panah anyelir yang membakar.
Aku mencintaimu selayaknya beberapa hal
Terlarang dicintai, diam-diam,
Di sela-sela bayangan dan sukma.

Aku mencintaimu seperti tetumbuhan
Yang urung mekar dan membawa jiwa
Bunga-bunga itu di dalam dirinya,
Dan karena cintamu,
Aroma bumi yang pekat tumbuh diam-diam
Di dalam tubuhku
Aku mencintaimu tanpa mengerti bagaimana
Sejak kapan atau dari mana

Aku mencintaimu dengan sederhana,
Tanpa kebimbangan, tanpa kesombongan:
Aku mencintaimu seperti ini,
Karena bagiku tak ada cara lain untuk mencintai

Di sini, di mana “aku” dan “kau” tiada,
Begitu erat, hingga tanganmu di atas dadaku
Adalah tanganku
Begitu erat, hingga ketika kau tertidur,
Kelopak matakulah yang tertutup.

*spannish (?)*
No te amo como si fueras rosa de sal, topacio
o flecha de claveles que propagan el fuego:
te amo como se aman ciertas cosas oscuras,
secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma.

Te amo como la planta que no florece y lleva
dentro de sí, escondida, la luz de aquellas flores,
y gracias a tu amor vive oscuro en mi cuerpo
el apretado aroma que ascendió de la tierra.

Te amo sin saber cómo, ni cuándo, ni de dónde,
te amo directamente sin problemas ni orgullo:
así te amo porque no sé amar de otra manera,

sino así de este modo en que no soy ni eres,
tan cerca que tu mano sobre mi pecho es mía,
tan cerca que se cierran tus ojos con mi sueño.

i'm soo happy =D

2010-01-20T23:24:00.000+07:00

i'm happy for some reason i couldn't mention now .
just can't keep it inside my head .
=D

kepulangan kalii inii =D

2009-12-30T22:32:00.000+07:00

yak ,
tanggal 3 desember guw pulang dengan tibatiba k indo .
dan 4 desember guw tibatiba muncul dii sekola iiang seharus nyah menjadii sebuah kejutann .

yaa ,
guw dii liatin bagaikan makhluk asing iiang baru sampe dii bumii untuk menyampaikan salam damai .
guw cuman berkunjung .

well ,
guw cukup senang dengan reaksii mereka iiang seneng atopun biasa ajj =D
guw seneng bisa ngliat dia orang lagii .
i miss my besties =)

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guw sempet makan ropang bu iis *which i miss soooo much* , pempek , tekwan , model , rendang , ayam panggang , daging kurakura *emang agak susah dii percaya , tapii guw emang makan* , cha kue , dan masiii buaanyakk lagii .

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dan guw pergii k balii !
bareng sodarasodara guw .
such a great trip .
waloo dii sana gga banyak ngapangapain ,
tapii enak bisa kumpul bareng sodara =D

dan guw sempet sakit juga .
untung nyah dii hari terakhir .
udah keg orang hamil lagii *kecuali bagian mencemence nyah*

pengen muntah , tapii gga bisa .
udah coba cara orang anorexia ,
tapii gga bisa .
sampe lidah blakang guw sakit .

dan akhir nyah guw jadii kpikiran tu orang anorexia .
mereka kepengen kurus sampe keg gitu .
padahal guw iiang mual mual ajj udah susah muntah nyah ,
apa lagii mereka iiang sehat seperti kuda ?

saking pengen nyah muntah ,
guw sampe nyanyii 'all i want for christmas is pukee*
walaupun christmas masii besok nyah .

tapii Tuhan memang baikk ,
stengah jem kemudian guw muntah .
yay !
xD

guw mrasa sangat lebih baik setelah muntah .
=D

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guw juga pergii k mall sama beberapa tmen guw .

perna pergii sama kath , novita , gracii .
pergii k artha nntn alvinn !
kyaaa lucu banget chipmunks nyahh .
rasa nyah pengen bawa pulangg chipmunks xD

besok nyah pergii bareng abongg sama susu .
k gm doangg sii .
soal nyah pengen nntn avatar doangg .
=D

abis itu pergii k pluit village jugaa .
gath alph .
sempet ktemuu banyak orangg .
=D

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1 hal iiang pastii .
i learn something from some of my friends .
never promise smth if u couldn't fulfill it .
and i could see who my real friends are =D

dan guw seneng bisa pulang kalii inii .
i could meet with my mom and dad .
which i love very much =)

perjalanan menjempud mampap ~

2009-10-02T14:49:00.002+07:00

waaa gga brasaa udha lamaa gga ngeblogg . xD
udha sebulanaann .

banyagg bangedd iiang kejadiian sbulann inii .
yaa buad tementemen guw dii jakarta sana , luw pastii masii terbiasa dengan kbiasaan guw iiang pelupaa banged .
nah kejadian kmarenkmaren inii guw lupa .
lols .

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pas 180909 kmaren , mamii papii kan mauu dateng kmarii .
guw inisiatif mao jempud mampap .
tapii guw mikir .
guw baruu dii sinii jugha bntar .
guw gga tauu jalan .
guw takud kalo naek taxi sendirii .

dan seharii sblom nyokab dateng , guw dnger classmate english guw mao brangkad jugha tanggal sgithu .
kbetulan waktu dan tempad nyah cocok banged sama kdatangan mampap .
jadii nyahh guw ngajak bareng githu kan .
guw kira bakal naek taxi ,
tauu nyah dia maoo pergii sama tmen nyahh .
guw gga githu kenal jugha kan sama tmen dia dan dia sndirii .
jadii yaa guw gga jadii nebengg dhe =(

guw mikir lagii .
dan guw baruu inged kalo sii koko perna ngenalin guw sama tukang taxi .
guw coba telpon .
eh ternyata dia gga bisaaa TT
yaa guw nekad ajj dha carii taxi luaran ntar .

eh gga lama abis guw tutub telpon , tuu tukang taxi telpon guw lagii .
dia bilang dia suru tmen nyahh ajj nganter guww .
waaaa ! THANKS GOD bangeddd !
guw bisa jempud nyokab tanpa harus khawatirr ~
xD

somemore , tuu tukang taxi jugha mao jempud anak nyahh iiang dateng darii Indo xD

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mampap nyampee kirakira jem 02.30 githuu .
tapii kata nyah pesawad nyahh delayy .
jadii nyampe jem 3 .
guw rasa gga masala laa .
cumand beda 30 mins .

pas guw tanya tmen guw , kirakira k bandara braph lama , dia bilang skitar 50 mins .
brartii guw harus jalan skitar jem 2an .
=D

pas udha jem 2 guw udha excited banged ,
guw turun k lobby nunggu taxi nyahh .
guw janjiian sama tukang taxi nyah skitar jem 2 - 2.15 .

guw udha dii bawah .
guw dudukduduk duluu .
trus guw liad taxi kosong dateng .
tauu nyah puna orang laen .

taxi 1 lagii lewad ~
lewad lagii ~
terus lewad ~

eh ada 1 taxi ngetem githu kan dii pinggir parkiran.
keg lagii nunggu orang githuu .
tukang taxi nyah bilang 'ntar guw tepon kalo udha nyampe'
tapii kog guw gga dii tepon yak ?
ah syaph tauu abis pulsa .

akhir nyah guw samperin ithu taxi .
tauu nyah bukand !
yawda dha guw nunggu lagii .
huahh ~

other taxi(s) come and go ~

...
UDHA 2.20 KOG TAXI NYAH KAGAG DATENGDATENG DHA ?
GROAAAA !

guw worried banged .
guw telpon .
BAH DIA MASII DII POM BENSIINN !

dia coba nenangin guw , bilang gga lama laa k airport , ada cek flu babibabiian .
cuih !
yawda dha guw nunggu .
mao gga mauu jugha dha .

pas dii tepon , guw coba nyarinyarii.
BUSED DHA DIA GGA PAKE TAXI BIASA .
dia pake van githu . mobil pribadii nyah dia .
brartii usaha guw melihad taxi iiang datang dan pergii siasia .
...

anyway , akhir nyah guw dii mobil .
tenang nyahh ~
=D

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yakk skarang guw otw k airport .
guw cumand tauu guw haruss k airportt iiang nama nyah LCCT .
kpanjangan nyahh LCC Terminal .

teruss pass dii jalan, guw liad papan kog KLIA smuaa yak ?
guw takud .
guw sms tmen guw .
'eh LCCT = KLIA ?'

pas dii bales jawaban nyah 'no , further down. near f1 circuit'
OMAYGADD .
GUW SALAA DOMSS ?

guw coba mikir .
oo bawahan dkid .
mungkin bisa jalan kakii kalii yak .
ah guw liad dulu ah .
syaph tauu nyokab guw turun dii KLIA .

pas nyampe dii KLIA , guw bingung .
LAH KOK BEDA AIRPORT NYAHH ?
esh we te .
ternyata anak nyah sii tukangtaxi ithu nyampe dii sinii .
dan sii tukang taxi ithu ngira mampap jugha nyampee dii sinii .
omaygadd .

terus guw tepon tukang taxi nyah .

'umm uncle ? i think my mom and dad arrived @LCCT'

'really ? oh myb we should pick up them first since my daughter haven't arrived yet'

'oh okay =D'

akhirr nyah guw naek taxi lagii .
tukang taxii nyah mintaa maab .
yaa okeh laa emang guw sala jugha.
mungkin guw gga jelas ngasii tauu nyah .
=D

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pas nyampe , guw sblom kluar dadahdadah sama bokab guw .
bokab guw keg bingung githuu .
guw mao buka pintuu ,
TAPII KOG GGA BISA?
SWT DHAAA .

ternyata ada child lock , jadii anakanak kalo maenan pintuu gga kbukaa .
huahh ~

bokab guw bilang , 'tadii papii bingung ithu kamuu aph bukand'
emang guw udha brubah jadii ranger kuning dii sinii =="

trus nyokab bilang 'kamuu gendud an de'
JEGERRR ~
NGKO GUW BILANG GUW KURUSANN .
TIDAKKK ~

yaa guw terima knyataan ajj dha .
emang dii sinii porsii nyahh gede banged .
jadii skarang guw prefer mamam mix rice .
huahh ~

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jadii guw dalam perjalanan k KLIA lagii buad jempud anak nyah tu tukangtaxi .
guw liad masii banyag tempad lapang .
jadii bagasii anak nyah pastii muad .

pas dateng .
guw liad anak nyah .
cewe .
guw pikir , 'ahh cewe , paling bawaan nyah 1 koper penuh'
stelah guw melihad kblakang,
BUSED DHA ADA KALII THU 2 KOPER GEDE DAN 4 KARDUS .

guw kaged .
nii anak mauu pinda ruma kalii ?
dan hampir gga muad .
untung ajj muad .

selidik puna selidik ,
ternyataa dia baruu kelar s1.
tadii nyah mauu lanjud s2 dii indo , tapii karna keadaan skarang gga memungkinkan ,
jadii nyah githu dhe .

guw pikir ,
ah alayalay indo .
kagag tauu jugha ikudikud an jugha soal masala indo - malay .
emang sala nyah orang malay jugha ?
*inii bukand garagara guw tinggal dii sinii . tapii guw merasa orang malay ajj gga ngepek aphaph sama orang indo iiang dii sinii . mereka teteb baee kog sama orang indoo dii sinii . buad tementemen iiang udha khawatir , thanks ! =D*

tapii lebii para nyah ,
ADA DOSEN DII SALAH SATU UNIV INDO NOLAK BUAD NGASII UJIAN K ORANG MALAY IIANG SKOLA DII SANA .
guw pikir , DIH NAJIS BANGED .
tolong yee , udha berpendidikan masii ajj keg alay .
cuih ~

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yaa sepanjang jalan kita ngmonginn masalaa ithu doams .
guw ngliad btaph malang nyaah orang malay iiang tinggal dii indo .
dan guw sbagaii orang indo iiang tinggal dii malay ?
santaisantaii ajj .
gga ada thuu iiang nama nyah diskriminasii !
untuk hal inii , guw akuin orang indo harus blajar darii orang malay .

dan gga brasa , udha nyampee dii apart guw =D
yaa istirahad dhee .
=D

nah sekian duluu , ntar guw lanjutkan lagii =D
lovee yaa all =D

life is a rollercoaster !

missing you.

week 11.

another thoughts of mine :)

fever.

3 months of holiday. *sigh*

untitled.

there was someone great born on December 6, 2010 :)

i am not the cinderella, i guess :(

untitled.

happy 7eleven days guys!

surviving !

bad news.

birthday !

the greatest phone calls i ever had , so far .

counting down : 7 days ! XD

hurt . pain . tears

letters to Juliet .

CIMP : case closed !

happy =D

Guang Liang - Tien Tang (Michael Wong - Heaven)

this is my stage and i am going to play it my way . can i ?

for someone who IS very dear to me =)

movies !

a sudden recall =)

a place i called home =)

dentist oh dentist ~

a delicious fire drill !

love and sacrifice .

='(

yes , it's another update in March .

thought you would not remember ;p

death . death . death

untitled.

soneta 17 - Pablo Neruda

i'm soo happy =D

kepulangan kalii inii =D

perjalanan menjempud mampap ~

3 months of holiday. sigh