untitled.

yes, an untitled post again.

a relationship needs a two way effort, one way will not make it till the end.
both need to fight for it.
the question is, is this worth fighting and suffering for?

there was someone great born on December 6, 1954 :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! <3

love you so much :)

thanks for everything that you have done for us, your loved ones.

i am proud of you :)

morning surprise :)

<3

i am not the cinderella, i guess :(

last Saturday, went to mall with mum and dad.
initial plan : to buy a blackberry for me *yippie!*

so, after arriving we went to look for food first.
getting back from malaysia, and i still ate the shinlin xxl chicken.
can be said as my usual food there, cause me likey the chicken :D
fyi : it's diff here and malaysia. in here, the xxl chicken has no bone! yippie! and they cut it into pieces :)
i regretted that i ordered the ricebox set.
:s

finished with filling our tummy with food, the hunt for blackberry shops was begun.
we managed to find 2 stores, with competitive prices.
but at the end, we bought at the first store we visited.
and now we're stuck with the Rp. 200,000 voucher to buy blackberry there.
~_~

proudly said, *drumrolls* my own blackberry! XD

me, excited with the blackberry, willingly to follow mum wherever she went for shopping XD
but at the end, it was me who bought things.
mum dragged me to 'The Executive' store, and i had just remembered that i had none of white formal shirts.
and i bought one after trying so much formal shirts.
being dragged to the department store, and i bought a purse i wanted from last last week.
well, i felt happy and guilty at the same time for spending much much money in a day.

lastly, being dragged to charles and keith.
mum asked me to buy a pair of flats. she is sick of me who always wears flip flops wherever i go.
fyi : she bought me a pair of heels last last week, and i was wearing it on the day i am telling you now.
and i found a pair of cute flats! ><
i want it so badly, and asked for my size.
too bad, my feet were so small, they don't have my size :(

not the cinderella *sigh*

untitled.

when feelings cannot be shouted out loud.
sigh.




AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

surviving !

hi hi hi !
i'm back to my blog after passing my 7th week in monash.
it was the most hectic week in Monash, so far.
i have 5 submissions of assignments in week 7.
no, it's not your eyes, you are right, it is FIVE.

two on wednesday, and another three on friday.
woohoo !
well, it was holiday on 27th and 31st of august.
but still, two of em are worth 10% EACH.

but thanks God, i'm surviving from that hectic week.
without missing my vball practice.
i.just.miss.vball.too.MUCH !
so, i am still practicing on tues nite and sat morning.
on tues nite, when i got back, i hav no energy left, finally i did nothing that day.
lol


*************


now i'm on the starting of week 8.
which is quite okay for me.
as usual, i got online quizzES as the appetizer,
and i got lab report as the snack =)
the lab report due tmr before 12,
yet i hav just done one part.
tonite i'm going to bukit bintang.
and now i'm finding some distractions things to do before i continue it.
hope i can finish this before going *fingercrossed*

can't wait for the vball competition.
wish i can do my best, and not disappointing the other team members =)

good news: i got the number 13 ! XD XD
bad news: i'm not feeling well since yesterday =(

kay then,
see yaaa.
back to report !

love,
vee

bad news.

hellooo !
i'm back here with few bad news .

first, i'm not feeling very well since last Tuesday.
i almost got a fever, but thanks God, it didn't turn out to be a very bad fever.
my sore throat already gone as well , but i still have difficulties in breathing due to my runny nose =(
i'm trying to make the runny nose go away by drinking my vitamin, and it shows a good effect =)
myb i'm just tired and not used to the Monash schedule currently.
thanks to my dear and friends who are wishing me to get well soon =)
take care guys ! =)

second, i have a lazy syndrome all over the way.
i was planning to do my SCI1020 asg since i-dunno-when, but i have just started this sunday, which is bad.
now i'm supposed to be catching up while updating my blog.

i think that's all .
wish you all a great week !
=)

the greatest phone calls i ever had , so far .

first i called my mum ,
this was the conversation i loved the most .

mum : it is almost ur birthday . what do u want for ur birthday ? i'll prepare it and bring it later .
me : i'm going to buy a camera , and that's enuff mum .
mum : no , i gv u that camera . it's for ur graduation present as well . so , u will hav another present for birthday .
me : then , i just want you to be here for my birthday . you .
mum : awww , sorry i couldn't make it . there are too many events and they r close to each other . you know there will b koko's graduation and wei jian's wedding .
me : yea =)

i can't help but crying during the phonecall .
sorry mum for lying , i told you i am having a flu that's why i sounded different in the phone .

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the second one , is my best friend .
i called her ,  i couldn't help but crying when i heard her voice .
i don't realize how much i miss her until i heard her voice .
and i think she felt the same way too =)
we cried in the phone .
both of us =)

talking to each other like we used to , it is just . amazing =)

well , it was over cause i forgot to reload my credits .
lol

gonna repeat these sometimes =)

counting down: 7 days! XD

and i already have my wish list ♥

XD

which is, sadly will still remain as a wish =(

CIMP : case closed !

finally I'm free from CIMP.
officially starting todayy =D

I finished my bio exam.
the night before, I could not sleep.
first my heart was beating.
I thought I was scared to face bio.
in fact, the qs is not as hard as I thought it would be.
so, just waiting for the results ;)

even though exam has passed, my heart still beats very fast.
scared? yes I am.
because of result? no it's not!
so why this heart still beats very fast?
because I will face my fear tomorrow.

N.E.E.D.L.E.
yes, I am going to have medical check up tomorrow morning.
to meet the requirement of Monash University.
omg omg.
I'm so nervous. and so does my mom.
she knows that I am scared and she is worried that I am going to go alone tomorrow.
well, I have to face it though.
wish me all the best =]

happy =D

for some reason , i am so happy yesterday .
the day which i spent to go to pasar malam with chan and suksuk (har) .
the day which i spent on studying and playing in b-17-03 .

i was so happy =)

Guang Liang - Tien Tang (Michael Wong - Heaven)

i found the song has a very beautiful meaning =)
i would love to share it , so here it is !





牽著你在天空飛翔
Qian zhe ni zai tian kong fei xiang


這樣看世界不一樣
Zhe yang kan shi jie bu yi yang

有了你在身旁笑的臉龐
You le ni zai shen pang xiao de lian pang

世界或許
Shi jie huo xu

就這麼寬廣
Jiu zhe me kuan guang

忽然就忘記了慌張
Hu ran jiu wang ji le huang zhang

人海之中你最明亮
Ren hai zhi zhong ni zui ming liang

無意間的影響
Wu yi jian de ying xiang

漸漸擴張
Jian jian kuo zhang

你豐富我生活感想
Ni feng fu wo sheng huo gan xiang

何必尋找所謂的天堂
He bi xun zhao suo wei de tian tang

原來我因為你
Yuan lai wo yin wei ni

不想再去流浪
Bu xiang zai qu liu lang

情願平凡
Qing yuan ping fan

不擁有一切也無妨
Bu yong you yi qie ye wu fang

有了你在心上
You le ni zai xin shang

已然是天堂
Yi ran shi tian tang

已經是天堂
Yi jing shi tian tang


Translations =)
(of course it is not ME who is translating , i don't really understand chinese =( )


Holding your hands while flying in the sky
Viewing the world (from above) is very different
With you by my side, and your smiling face
(I realize) Perhaps the world is actually very vast


I've suddenly forgotten all my anxieties
In a midst of crowd, you shine the brightest
Without realizing your increasing influence (on me)
You have fulfilled and enriched my life


Why bother to search for a supposed heaven?
Because of you, I no longer desire to wander off
I'd rather be ordinary and it doesn't matter if I don't possess anything at all
When I have you in my heart, I'm already in heaven

I've suddenly forgotten all my anxieties

In a midst of crowd, you shine the brightest

Without realizing your increasing influence (on me)

You have fulfilled and enriched my life

Why bother to search for a supposed heaven?

Because of you, I no longer desire to wander off

I'd rather be ordinary and it doesn't matter if I don't possess anything at all

When I have you in my heart, I'm already in heaven

*dedicated to someone =)*

this is my stage and I am going to play it my way.

after thinking over and over,
do I have to do this?
why am I having this feelings?
do I have to pretend to be strong?
am I the one that always have to understand others feelings?

after all, I'm just a human being.
I want someone to understand me sometimes.
I can't be perfect all the time.
I cannot prepare for the things that will come.
life is a mess.

I'm just a human being.
I'm full of imperfectness.
and I am tired of putting my mask on all of the time.
this is my stage, and I am going to play it my way.

but after a few moments, I realize that I cannot put off my mask.
I am aware of other's feelings.
I just can't ignore it.

for someone who IS very dear to me =)

someone who came into my life, quietly.
someone who made me having a hope in him, even though i thought it was impossible.
someone who is quiet, yet full of surprises.
someone who holds my hands tightly.
someone who remembers things that are connected with me, but forgets a lot of other people's.
someone who looks like he does not care at all, but in fact, he cares for me.
someone who understands me.
someone who always be there in my best and in my worst.
someone who supports me all the time.
someone who motivates me.
someone whom i tell all my stories and feelings to.
someone who listens to every word and ideas that i said, no matter how weird they are.
someone who makes me feel relieved.
someone who makes me feel secure to have him around.
someone who comforts me.
someone who does every little things which i love.
someone who makes me laugh.
someone who is the reason that i still can be smiling in the most terrible day.
someone who always wants to please me.
someone who always wants to make me smile.
someone who reminds me of something important.
someone who helps me to overcome my fears.
someone who is honest.
someone who is scared to hurt my feelings.

someone who makes me excited and happy.

someone who makes me wanting to be perfect for him.

someone who makes me wondering what he is actually thinking and doing.

someone who makes me asking why and how.

someone who protects me.

someone who makes me can do the things that i thought was impossible, by just believing and having faith in me that i can do it.

someone whom i love.
someone whom i miss.
someone whom i care for.
someone who makes me pray that this is not just a sweet dream.
someone who makes me feel blessed and thankful to God for his presence.

someone who is grateful for my presence.

someone who feels blessed for the feelings i have towards him.

someone who express his love in his own way.
someone who is you =)
undeniable.irreplaceable. irresistible.you

love and sacrifice .

we are often told that love means sacrificing for your loved ones .
i found it is quite untrue .

sacrificing sounds to me , like you are being forced to do it .
there is no other choice .
but in life , there is always a choice .
even thought you are hurt by someone whom you love .
you have the choice to leave , or to stay and forgive .

and if you pick the second choice .
it is not sacrificing yourself being hurt by him/her and in the end you have to try to forget it .
it is your CHOICE to stay and try to forgive their faults .

be glad and be blessed art thou who feel love =)
it makes you alive .


*love is not only about couples . you can see love thru your parents' eyes and your friends' action =)*

death . death . death

a sudden thought came into my mind .
why am I having those nightmares again ?
why are they seemed so real ?
I can't sleep well , and I dunno why .

it's not the nightmare which i had before for so many times .
the nightmares which made me afraid to go back to sleep again .
the nightmares which made me cried in the middle of the night .
the nightmares about someone that was once very dear to me .

now , it's about the death .
the death of my parents , and about mine .

questions come to my mind ,
'will tomorrow come ?'
'will I see that person tomorrow ?'
'can I hold them tomorrow ?'
'where will I be tomorrow ?'


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the nightmares are back to hunt me down .
it thirsts for my fear and my tears .

soneta 17 - Pablo Neruda

I do not love you as if you were a rose made of salt or topaz,
or an arrow of carnations spreading fire
I love you the way certain dark things are loved, secretly,
between the shadow and the soul.

I love you like the plant that never blooms,
but conceals within itself the light of those flowers;
and, thanks to your love,
the darkness of my body houses the suffocating aroma that arose from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, when, or where from;
I love you straightforwardly, with neither problems nor pride:
I love you thus, not knowing how to love you otherwise than this way whereby neither ‘you’ nor ‘I’ exist...
so close, that your hand on my chest is mine,
so close, that your eyes grow heavy when I tire.

i'm soo happy =D

i'm happy for some reason i couldn't mention now .
just can't keep it inside my head .
=D